For someone who works in a field where people are constantly
facing barriers and fluctuating between stability and instability, I don’t take
bad news well. In fact, I don’t even
take mediocre news well. It hits me
hard; I’m unable to think of anything else.
My mind races to the worst case scenario and I often find little comfort
in the possibility of a positive outcome.
This year, bad things keep happening to people I love; I’m
forced to face this demon of mine. The
hurt, anger and fear I feel when I think about these things has begun to take a
toll on me and I can no longer focus on the worst; I can’t survive this
way.
Most recently, my Papa was diagnosed with stage 4
melanoma. Of course, my mind first went
to the worst possible thoughts. My heart
raced, tears poured, anger took over. He’s
so healthy, why him?
After learning more facts and calming myself down, I remembered,
the hope the Lord offers and the miracles he is capable. So, I pray, I hope, I love; that’s all I can
do.
Join me?
3 comments:
Love you, Friend.
Absolutely! You have been hit hard by many unusual and tough situations these last few months. I'm sorry. Truly though, this is where your faith is the greatest gift you have (2 Corinthians 1:3 - 5). Letting ALL things rest in God's arms is saving grace for us! Of course we want to be in charge and 'fix' things, but we can't. We can't do anything but pray and offer our help and heart to those that we love and care about so deeply. When we give our loved ones to God, it allows us the freedom and time to take care of the more important business of comforting and caring.
I love you and I love that you love and care so deeply. Know that you are not alone, God can carry the load for you!
Enough preaching! Please let me know if there is anything I can do to help you or the family.
I'm all in- love you! Bre
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